And HERE’S something that I certainly didn’t expect while trying to locate my pair of shredded jeans the other day: stumbling across my old high school diary!
But, there it was, in all its royal blue, hopelessly-laminated glory! (Gosh, I wonder who was responsible for that?! Don’t ask me at the moment; I think I’m needed in the basement…) I considered ignoring it (after all, those jeans weren’t going to find themselves… and they didn’t. Rascals!), but the lure of being transported back to my fifteen year-old self (sans Maths) proved to be too irresistible!
So, have I changed? Have I evolved beyond recognition? Did I re-read it and immediately want to discard it, in the hopes of destroying any evidence of its existence? Actually, the discovery wasn’t as shocking as I had imagined (hoped?)!
There are quotes EVERYWHERE. Quotes about music, quotes about life and quotes about love. There are pictures of musicians, electric guitars and headphones. (I was obsessed with music! Which uh, hasn’t exactly changed.) There are photo booth strips, ridiculous cartoons (hi, Grover!), movie tickets, business cards from restaurants that I loved and plans slotted in with friends.
There’s tales of silly boy drama, gatecrashing an all-male sleepover (it’s not as sordid as it sounds, I promise!), documentation of my visit to a psychic (he said that how I communicated would be my career – huh! How about that!) and reviews of each week, complete with lists of what my favourite song, food (there are packets of Jelly Belly jellybeans glued in there!), MSN name (oh, jeez!), quote and moments had been! (Ha, does that sound familiar?!)
There’s a sense of excitement about everything, and clear, keen anticipation for the future. (And look at that last page! There’s even those little x’s before “first day of Year 10″ that I type in front of everything now! Sheesh, I’m beginning to wonder if I’ve changed at all?!)
If you were to re-visit your old high school diaries now, what would they reveal? How far have you come? It’s strange; I feel like my personality, thoughts, feelings, attitudes and values are so, so different from that of even a year ago, so to compare them to that of seven years ago and realise that they’re actually surprisingly similar? I’m amazed! (Or perhaps I’ve just always possessed the same ridiculous sense of humour?! Who knows!) ANYWAY. I would love to know about the person that YOU were, and the person that you’ve become today!
P.S. The delightfully splendid Emily and I were discussing this very subject last night, and she (cleverly!) remarked how interesting/amazing it would be if there were other people who would want to create their own Dear Diary: The High School Diary Files! post – so if you would like to write about your experiences on your own blog as well, you’re very welcome!