Now, although we traditionally celebrate all things wonderful on Friday, this week, I’d like to skip through something a little different and share what’s, well, sucked. You see, I recently read a colossally touching piece on depression at The Secret Life Of A Retail Assistant (a terrific blog!), and it was this quote in particular that truly had my brain tinkering away:
“The worst thing about depression is how alienated it makes me feel. I kind of think that if all of us came out and talked about depression – our depression, friends’, family members’, acquaintances’ depressions, fleeting depressions, chronic depression – that it might make all of us affected feel a little less alien. A little more at home within ourselves.”
Oh, sweet Stacey. YOU’RE SO NOT ALONE! We all have doubts about ourselves, days of pure despondency and sometimes, weeks from absolute hell. That’s LIFE! (I honestly don’t believe that these are emotions or experiences that ever disappear, regardless of who you are or how many pennies you possess in the bank – I just think we become better at developing a positive mindset – which is excellent! – to counteract these moments.)
In my endless, ridiculous quest for fun and adventure, both personally and on Frock & Roll, perhaps I’m not highlighting the crappy, cruddy and generally blah-di-dah occurrences of the everyday enough. So I’d like to! Today! It’s certainly not with the intention of depressing you (sheesh, that’d be the last thing that I’d ever want to do!), but rather, in the interest of keeping it r-e-a-l and reminding you that EVERYONE suffers stinkers of a time. And with that, here’s what I’m currently loathing!
x People Who Assume That You’re Mentally Playing The Wedding March If You’re Friendly To Them – ARGH! Does this ever happen to you?! I swear, this is becoming an increasingly common (and awkward) situation for me!
Approximately two months ago, this guy popped up all brand new on the scene… somewhere. (I won’t be incriminating and reveal where/how; there is a publicly available link to Frock & Roll on my Facebook profile, after all!) “Hi!” He started saying after a fortnight of exchanging “who the heck is that?” glances. “How are you?” He’d even muster sometimes. Sensing a green light for regular communication, I then started chirping “HEY! How are you?!” each time I saw him, which was apparently an extremely unwise move, because he immediately started avoiding me! I’m 99.9% convinced that he thinks I want to have his children. Isn’t it insane that treating people nicely could be perceived as an act to be suspicious of?! (Whenever I see him now I feel like bellowing “jeez buddy, come on! I’M NOT VISUALISING WEDDING GOWNS WHEN I LOOK AT YOU!”)
x Sitting (Read: STRESSING!) Between “I Have Absolutely No Time To Do Any Of My Copywriting Work… HELP!” And “But What If I Decide To Leave My Job And Never Land Another Project AGAIN?!” – When do you decide to take the leap and turn your part-time passion into a full-time career? It’s a question that I’ve been asking myself everyday this week! (And it’s a terrifying one, too. I’m constantly conscious of not complaining about work out of fear for ever being perceived as unprofessional or, uh, a jerk, but these past seven days have been HARD. Think slumbering at 2.00AM and rising again at 5.00AM each day to complete everything!)
x Other Little Things – Conversations that start with “hey, I was looking through your photographs on Facebook the other day… you know, those ones from when you used to be slim?” (um, gosh. THANKS, MISTER!); discovering that it is, in fact, possible to survive on one hour’s sleep (surprise, surprise, it’s not remotely enjoyable, either!); hearing that Topshop‘s coming to Australia (am I the only weirdo who DOESN’T get excited by the overseas chains that set up shop here? I mean, I love fashion and all, but one of the most exciting things about travelling used to be unearthing all of the unique, unusual stores overseas. It seems a little sad that we’re all becoming the same!); realising that I’m turning 24 next month (I still feel 18! CONFRONTING!); stereotypes and stigmas (ooh, do I have a post to share on these next week! Hint: I do); and bad manners (I witnessed somebody cut their toe nails on public transport the other day. Their toe nails! Not cool!).
I hope this exercise has demonstrated that NO-ONE’S perfect and that no existence is perfect! Please don’t ever succumb to any unnecessary feelings of inferiority! (Seriously, even Lady Gaga recently admitted that a heap of the time, she still feels like a “loser kid”. She’s one of the richest, most successful women in the world! It’s living proof that there’s not a single person immune from feeling disenchanted.)